you've got me running on sunshine.

i can very foresee myself abandoning this blog in time to come.
for a very good reason now, because nothing much seems to be happening around.
i havent been catching up much with anyone, i havent really been talking to anyone, but weirdly, i feel kinda busy.

its just the time where you wanna shut yourself from the world, stay home and stuff your face with plenty of ice cream and chocolates.

i wish i could tell myself to get a life and stop acting like such a loser.
but i can't, can i? i'm just a weird character you can never figure.
 

the very noble mummy an hour before birth






it's a boy its a boy its a boy!
i sound like some proud grandmother now haha! but truth is, i am feeling like a proud grandmother! (: 
i'm ecstatic, really!

i'mm so proud of yoki for giving birth to this cute little black thing (though honestly, its not very cute at this moment. at some angles, because its eyes're not open yet, it even looks quite scary mmm). my heart aches when i see how tired she is yet she can't rest cos she's gotta take care of the tiny one. 

its so amazing how dogs handle their pregnancy so well single handedly. before i knew it, the baby was lying there, he was blood-free and the umbilical cord was cut. 
by who you wonder? by the mummy herself! there's still a little of the cord left on the baby, yoki's still trying to bite it off bit by bit, and then where it goes? into her stomach.
everytime she does that, the baby lets off little screams, and i never fail to squirm.
its like watching discovery channel live (siyun should be very interested  hahaha)
wells, everyone should come to my house to see the little baby! (:







celebrated siyun's birthday last tues!
with our usual tues gelare fare and plenty of durian puffs (:
hope you liked the small surprise we planned for you dear! once again, thanks for being such an amazing friend these years. school life could never have been spectacular without you- our chopping of backrow seats in the lts, dashing out of lectures for chicken rice, hysterical laughter due to siva's voice 'cracking' and of course, those girltalks we share even after school life ended.
 i'm still upset you're not going nus with me! make me happy for nothing SOBS:(

and i'm back to being an ecstatic grandmother hahaha! :)))))))) 

the last weekend made me realise that every little thing you do or say bears a consequence.
affects the feelings of others, of whether they'll be willing again to share everything with you, the whole process and outcome. once its said or done, you can't take it back. and as much as you like, time can't be turned.
it was one of the worst we had last sunday.
moody and grumpiness.
but i tell myself, the big L will summon all that is needed to see us through, it will (:

back from a very filling, very satisfying dinner with ping. 
the long walks after meals, the sea breeze, and the confessions(:

well you realise that as you grow older, you have lesser friends who you can really bare your soul to, who wont judge you for the things you do or say.
but at the end of the day, it dawns upon you that it's the quality, and not the quantity, that matters anymore.
i'm just thankful for the few i have right now, though somehow i can't put to words exactly how hollow and empty it feels sometimes. 
not making sense!


met the girls at holland v last night with christina back in our arms! (:



and guess who we saw. UTTTTTTT!!! :DDD
mans, he's really really cute! i couldnt stop gawking at him the entire dinner hahaha.


the very best/pathetic attempt to get close to utt haha.



the business og dinner at jianbang's tapas wine bistro!
comparing myself to him (having 3 shops and 4 pushcarts) makes me feel like such a bum. 

its been a long while since ive felt this way, the peer pressure.
which makes its so important i realise, to stay grounded and true.
i cant deny acceptance but i dont want to look into the mirror one day and see someone i dont recognise anymore. 

business camp!

 

retrospectif at timbre! (:
 

 

escape on sun was an opportunity to relive those secondary school days. i remember how it used to THE place to go whenever we had chalets at downtown.
years later, the rides have dwindled but viking still managed to get me scream my lungs out and embarrass myself with something the boy can very well use to threaten me and tarnish my (very non existent) glamorous reputation haha. SHHH. 




guess who's cooking the rosti! (:





the picnic-turn-lunch eugene and i whipped up was suprisingly delish!
despite the saltiness, i thought the steak was awesomeee. it was (almost) medium rare. i can't be prouder of myself(:

the spontaneity and the fantastic company, it just warms the heart.
gives my troubled mind a little rest. 
if only there was guaranteed world peace, then there wouldnt be a need for army. how nice!